~happy box~ im running out of options im running out of time i cannot atone my sins i cannot press rewind i feel just like tazmily drugs are my happy box am i fine? not really slam the door arm the locks im running out of options im running out of time i cannot atone my sins i cannot press rewind i feel just like tazmily drugs are my happy box am i fine? not really slam the door arm the locks its been about a month and everydays the same buying another new strain just to try and numb the pain i got hit with pk love now im cryin like a dove in this memory of life let me fly on up above im running out of options im running out of time i cannot atone my sins i cannot press rewind i feel just like tazmily drugs are my happy box am i fine? not really slam the door arm the locks -------------------------------------------------- ~starstorm~ ask myself why do i gotta be alive? it wont ever be the same i dont care if i survive all these lean tears, yeah shawty said she wanna die look her in her eyes but im starin at the sky i see the beauty in this life but its faded and im faded, isolated only happy when im smokin on this trash bag spend it when i get it i dont check the price tag u dont see me im a fuckin nightcrawler phone on silent im a fuckin bother i cant fuckin text u girl im not a author not a spider, ima fuckin stalker kumatora when i hit u with a starstorm i cant ever escape when these thoughts form mensis cage like the host of this nightmare dreading the future im in so much despair -------------------------------------------------- ~but nobody came~ she stuck in my head, in my brain like a splinter im not afraid to admit that i miss her yeah they wanna copy my swag like a printer this life makes me wish for a nuclear winter but im high as shit so i dont really fucking care u know what im smokin, u can smell it in the air im trapped in my room so i light a fuckin flair but nobody came there was nobody there dont talk when u see me im tired, i dont wanna be me but i still play em, mp3 all alone, packing cones, sniffing keys dont talk when u see me im tired, i dont wanna be me but i still play em, mp3 all alone, packing cones, sniffing keys silver for monsters and steel is for humans i dont really fucking feel like a human i dont really fucking feel like a human i dont really fucking feel like a human dont talk when u see me im tired, i dont wanna be me but i still play em, mp3 all alone, packing cones, sniffing keys dont talk when u see me im tired, i dont wanna be me but i still play em, mp3 all alone, packing cones, sniffing keys i dont wanna live if im not next to u built from the ground up like gentoo yeah we go together like bin and cue wanna stay but you went on ur own avenue guess ill just cope and say its whatever im always told it wont last forever all those summer nights up in ur spell but now its the end and i say farewell -------------------------------------------------- ~nights pt. 2~ i dont even walk the nights no more and every menial task feels like a chore u are a star in my night sky just know that ill love u forevermore slipping away is my sanity every night is a goddamn eternity will u be there when i say goodbye? this life is slowly slipping from me in the night i try and sleep i find myself six feet deep and in the morning im up again all this shit i cant fuckin maintain i wish the night would consume my consciousness and surround me i dont know why the fuck i am even i dont even go outside no more yeah baby ur all i adore all i feel is emptiness without u one step away from falling thru slipping away is my sanity every night i watch myself bleed i wont ever ever say goodbye cus baby ur all that i ever need but everything that keeps me together is falling apart i got this thing that i consider my only art of fucking people over -------------------------------------------------- ~ur face in the window~ sun refracting through empty afternoons ur here, but not with me rotting in my room shadows stretch, they creep sunlight through the sheets my walls caving in just give me one last hint check on me when you come down my room feels so alone now havent slept cause this emptiness is keepin me up lock my door, phone still dead too tired to make my death bed in the window, ur all i see open it so i can breathe -------------------------------------------------- ~shadow~ look around i dont even make a sound got a crescent on my necklace and im layin on the ground hearing echoes feelin breathless is my death inbound? end my life i am so helpless im forever spellbound shut the curtain close the window let of all this time pass fuck i swear that aint my shadow your reflection in some glass in the night i do not sleep and im bumpin lil peep ignite all this fuckin gas im forever at an impasse i dont have the urge to speak peripheral where i sneak im the shadow in ur room ill bury u in this gloom sp-spinnin off a headlight mix it with fanta not with sprite leave me bleeding on the pavement tie me up within ur basement feel like joeyy on this shit how i always wanna slit but i dont i wont succumb got lex luger on the drum spend it quick i lost a band tremble runnin thru my hand t-turn me up im bout go dumb shut my eyes im feelin numb -------------------------------------------------- ~all for nothing~ leave me cryin with a nosebleed u-usb, i reup on weed fuck, i feel it in my heartbeat smokin loud just to feel complete and im headin down this spiral e-e-every day im suicidal stuck forever on the same page locked forever in my own cage i never wanna wake up i just wanna sleep forever feelin sad i gotta roll up u dont care so its whatever thc up in my bloodstream shoutout goat i miss kketamine message me im always online i give up i want to resign i-i just wanna end my life got hypnosis psi combine all these drugs, half-life i deserve to fucking die i deserve to fucking suffer soot dumpling like im from mother its almost the end of summer feelings that i rediscover '22 i almost gave up wish i did it now im fucked up and im out of motivation i dont really feel sensation yeah this is my cry of fear i-i dont really like it here guess ull see me in the autumn guess im really at the bottom it was just a waste of time all these stars never align fuck, i just want to feel something yeah i did it all for nothing it was just a waste of time all these stars never align fuck, i just want to feel something i did it all for nothing it was just a waste of time all these stars never align fuck, i just want to feel something i did it all for nothing -------------------------------------------------- ~joyless~ im completely out of hope this might be my final note take a knife and drain my life, please stab me in the throat if youre listening please send me a pm im awake while you sleep through the am im completely out of hope, existence is a chore how can i even cope? i lost all that i adore take my head and slam it straight on through the wall even tho that i know it wont help at all ive been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand another day another night it is so fucking bland these sensations barely interest me for another day time is ticking, do not help, it is the only way ive lost all my fucking friends, i hate myself and this world cannot summon anyone with a finger that is furled do i end my fuckin life? would u care if i died? i cant sleep, i cant eat, i just might suicide reborn, feel like bloodborne smokin on exotic moon charm on my neck, wearin rings, shit demonic 5am, trash bag, and i pack another bowl im so tired of this life and this shit i cant control getting faster moving faster now its getting out of hand at my limit, not much more i can fucking withstand lights are flashing cars are crashing, getting frequent now dont deserve this fuckin life, i gotta die somehow ive been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand another day another night it is so fucking bland these sensations barely interest me for another day time is ticking, do not help, it is the only way getting faster moving faster now its getting out of hand at my limit, not much more i can fucking withstand lights are flashing cars are crashing, getting frequent now dont deserve this fuckin life, i gotta die somehow -------------------------------------------------- ~phantasmagoria~ at this point i think i barely can function i sing and i write and i just do this production these days i barely leave my room, filled with guilt sometimes i stare at the moon on top of cities we built i feel the seconds like my very own heartbeat i wish i could delete buildings made of concrete phantasmagoria, my walls blow away i know ull be here someday but for now i decay my body fell to the ground when i watched you leave was it always earthbound or was i just naive? despite it all i still love u the same yet i dwell on the past and what we couldve became every day is a fucking eternity do i blame it on my neurodiversity? or in the end am i just fucked in the brain? i miss my closest friend, i need to learn to abstain at this point i think i barely can function i sing and i write and i just do this production these days i barely leave my room, filled with guilt sometimes i stare at the moon on top of cities we built i feel the seconds like my very own heartbeat i wish i could delete buildings made of concrete phantasmagoria, my walls blow away i know ull be here someday but for now i decay at this point i think i barely can function i sing and i write and i just do this production these days i barely leave my room, filled with guilt sometimes i stare at the moon on top of cities we built i feel the seconds like my very own heartbeat i wish i could delete buildings made of concrete phantasmagoria, my walls blow away i know ull be here someday but for now i decay